Absorption "Klee-Tah"

Dear Lord,

I see you want me to contribute more efforts to the site and have it not just be a technical process that I am going through but to put absolute feeling into the entire project, and this is what I will do. Systematic movements are so much easier to follow than to go by feel as we grow older, and I must always remember not to succumb to that.

You came to me this morning and I felt your inspirational voice flow through me as I moved throughout the morning but now as I am entering the afternoon, I am losing my hold on you. Because my prayers have not been answered as yet, I am starting to doubt yet again. But then again it wasn't like I'd absolute faith before. I was always too busy questioning.

Can you help me to have trust? To stop self-doubting, hindering the flows of creation and pursuing neurosis instead. I really wish to grow much faster than this. I want so much more. But my studies always precedes in so great a distance from the action. I shall learn from you, and I know your concentration skills are phenomenal. Because I have always practiced diversity rather than absorption, my concentration skills have declined rather than improved. But I know whatever I do well, it is done because in that regard I have totally been consumed.

So now I promise you this. I shall not multi-task if I can help it. Just simplify and focus. With this action please give me the power that I am asking for such that it matches up to my mind's growth. Genius can only be harnessed this way. And I have always known this.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,

Celestine