I Stand By Me

Thank you that although there were no eggs, there was still something satisfying to eat like instant noodles. I am eating that right now actually and feeling really good about it. This might actually be better for me than bread and eggs because it is more filling and I have quite a lot of things to do before I make lunch later.

Thank you that I've realised that how to not get disconnected from the stream due to the emotions of others is to not need to be affirmed by these people. That detachment allows the state of abundance to keep on flowing and the ego to be disengaged.

Thank you that Isaac apologised for that flash of anger that arised from his worry due to time and the feeling of burden. It would mean a lot to me but as I am understanding the above, now feel no change in emotion because I do not need his niceness to me to validate who I am.

Thank you that I just had an inspiration of what coloured nails I should do next. Whitish-silverish - emphasizing my longish fingers and cool enough to create an effect like black would despite it being light coloured. That makes it creative and interesting for me.

I am glad that Isaac said it will only take about an hour to do up the proposal because the thought of it does make me feel quite lazy.

Aum Aem Hreem Kleem Chamundaya Yech

Dear Hanuman,

Thank you that I have all my limbs and in spite of the bad childhood I had emotionally, it is on a totally different level compared to real shit that happens all over the world with little children and their ruined little lives. I was blessed, loved and cherished.

Thank you that I have Isaac who is always with me, always true to me and loves me in the best way any intellectual could ever ask for. In my complains about the situation that I am in and the lameness of other people's love troubles, I have to look at the blessings in which I have that I take for granted now 'cos it's such a total given.

Thank you that yesterday I had the best sleep I've had for a long while. It was good and nice that it is just the beginning of having a bed everyday now for the rest of my life. I shall make sure this is so. And I am so thankful now for these little things that I have always taken for granted before.

Thank you that today because of the good sleep, I woke up feeling energized and so did some housework when I woke. It felt good to help out properly in the house. It's not a nice feeling to be thought of as lazy or not helping out at all. It's part of my Aquarian pride to be part of the parcel in this way.

I am very excited to go for food now. Let's see where this journey takes me.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,
Celestine