I Stand By Me

Thank you that although there were no eggs, there was still something satisfying to eat like instant noodles. I am eating that right now actually and feeling really good about it. This might actually be better for me than bread and eggs because it is more filling and I have quite a lot of things to do before I make lunch later.

Thank you that I've realised that how to not get disconnected from the stream due to the emotions of others is to not need to be affirmed by these people. That detachment allows the state of abundance to keep on flowing and the ego to be disengaged.

Thank you that Isaac apologised for that flash of anger that arised from his worry due to time and the feeling of burden. It would mean a lot to me but as I am understanding the above, now feel no change in emotion because I do not need his niceness to me to validate who I am.

Thank you that I just had an inspiration of what coloured nails I should do next. Whitish-silverish - emphasizing my longish fingers and cool enough to create an effect like black would despite it being light coloured. That makes it creative and interesting for me.

I am glad that Isaac said it will only take about an hour to do up the proposal because the thought of it does make me feel quite lazy.

Aum Aem Hreem Kleem Chamundaya Yech

Dear Hanuman,

Thank you that I have all my limbs and in spite of the bad childhood I had emotionally, it is on a totally different level compared to real shit that happens all over the world with little children and their ruined little lives. I was blessed, loved and cherished.

Thank you that I have Isaac who is always with me, always true to me and loves me in the best way any intellectual could ever ask for. In my complains about the situation that I am in and the lameness of other people's love troubles, I have to look at the blessings in which I have that I take for granted now 'cos it's such a total given.

Thank you that yesterday I had the best sleep I've had for a long while. It was good and nice that it is just the beginning of having a bed everyday now for the rest of my life. I shall make sure this is so. And I am so thankful now for these little things that I have always taken for granted before.

Thank you that today because of the good sleep, I woke up feeling energized and so did some housework when I woke. It felt good to help out properly in the house. It's not a nice feeling to be thought of as lazy or not helping out at all. It's part of my Aquarian pride to be part of the parcel in this way.

I am very excited to go for food now. Let's see where this journey takes me.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,
Celestine

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa

Dear Lord,

Thank you that Ernesto called back. That was great... I am quite excited about performing and it is weird that tomorrow ended up with two so-called auditions now. I think it must be the obvious next step. I am going to flow with this whole thing and see how it goes...

Thank you that Francois called me albeit halfway. It will be good to do the gig with him because at least this means I have guitar accompaniment and I would really like to do him the favour since he came up with that nice compliment of asking me to sing with him first.

Thank you that Nick seems pretty keen on me and Isaac being involved in his band set up thingy. The banter two and fro on fb was hilarious to me, fun and hilarious. I shall go check what else has been said after I logged out, and see Nick tomorrow at his pub!

Thank you that it is now time for bed. I am quite, quite tired really and am looking forward to bed. I shall go clear the kitchen now and also use the toilet for down time. The land of dreams is already calling out to me and I am keen on doing some visualisation before I fall asleep altogether.

It is great that I have a tarot reading friend who can help to provide an objective insight to each reading.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,
Celestine

om shrim maha lakshmi yei swaha

Dear Lord,

Thank you that A was so sweet and so easy about it all. It makes me feel great that we have friends like these. And he's fucking definitely on my list now. I will not forget this... so it's J, A, S, E and B. Having this list spurs me on further because it is a good list not an enemy list which will be damaging.

Thank you that the room is much neater and cleaner now. I shall make it even more so later after we've eaten. I've noticed a relation to keeping my roots maintained and travelling further in life, and also that when it is not, negativity is attracted to me.

Thank you that T is obviously affected that Is and I are not actively involved in the group nowadays. It is good that somebody feels the difference and that we are missed. Maybe we should have spoken up but then it will be harder to get the investment in.

Thank you for the numbers that you gave me earlier and also that we missed today's. I know that monday's mine. You promised us and I know you will deliver. I shall read up more about you now... find out more, see what else I can be inspired by. There's so much I do not know...

It is good that A has affirmed he'd be doing e transfer in an hour or so... and it's done!

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,
Celestine

"Biswas"

Dear Lord,

Thank you that I lost such a big amount that it was normal to do what I did, otherwise, it would have been extremely stressful and embarrassing. Also, I think there was a reason for things to turn out as such so that perhaps I can play again and win enough for what we need or make them clients for the other source of income.

Thank you the dude was nice enough to send me home... and overall the hangout with them after the game was pretty nice. There was a difference and I felt like the smokes hindered my full participation with the new. I am definitely not going to smoke anymore.

Thank you that Fiona was nice enough to offer to cover for me first. And generally she was considerate towards me and all that. That felt nice even though we ain't that close, perhaps especially so. And she offered so much food and cigarettes, it was no joke really.

Thank you that there's still enough to move around tomorrow and possibly to do what we were going actually going to do today before the mahjong waylaid us. I was wrong, what we were going to do was actually more of a confirmation of the final deal than the game.

I realise now that complacency and faith can be easily mixed up. Confidence and ego have to be carefully separated.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,
Celestine

"Shanti"

Dear Lord,

Thank you that we have hung the clothes up already so its not going to be another pile of stinky laundry. Also, the infected clothes are outside waiting to be sunned which separates the good laundry from the bad and also the smells. After the sunning, if the clothes are still smelly, I will personally handwash them.

Thank you that I see now that it started from my own lack of self-discipline and weakness that has caused a rift between me and Isaac. It started from asking him to cook for me when I can easily do it myself. Which got him feeling like he's being made to do a lot of things while what he actually wants to do is to go for a run.

Thank you that W has been swift enough to respond to the matter at hand. Now all we need to do is to figure out how to contribute our share of the bargain. After detoxing from the recent episode we shall begin our meeting and discussion about the matter.

Thank you that the mantra that Isaac and I did together earlier appeared to be very powerful. I can totally feel a sensation of throbbing slightly beneath the surface of my forehead. I am absolutely excited to go through a true spiritual experience and cannot wait for day three.

It is good that Isaac tried to patch things back halfway through our fit. Another thing to notice about my ego.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,

Celestine

"Shalom"

Dear Lord,

Thank you for the fact that the fear of having not enough is slowly dissipating along with a growing trust in you. There are many factors that are contributing to this confidence... the fact that it's rather easy to get that little bit of everyday stash with just one phonecall and also the very example that we have survived this long already.(W)

Thank you that I exercised yesterday and didn't even plan it! And a good one at that because my whole body's aching... and specific parts quite intensely as well. Also, the 'exercise' was watched and enjoyed by my friends whom praised me for a job well done so that was pleasurable to me.(E)

Thank you that there's enough food for one more meal later, which makes me happy because I like that there's always makan available. The food is rather heaty though so I am drinking a lot of water now, nearly done with a whole bottle already which is of course good for detox either way even if I wasn't heaty.(E)

Thank you that I have already registered for the HK site and will soon be uploading the full proposal to a solid gateway to investors. I have hopes for this one and despite any misgivings on my part due to our own debts issues, am sure that something can be worked out as long as this part of the bargain, getting the investor, is settled.(F)

It was nice talking to Beryl and having her understand that part of me which I find most important for a good friend to - my metaphysical concepts and theories.(A)

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,

Celestine