"El" Strength

Dear Lord,

I am in a weird state, lost because I am not sure what life is going to bring to me. It is exciting but then it could be familiar as well, and if it is the latter, it wouldn't be very good. And this time since it's so much worse than before, it could mean real doom. But I am honestly sick of it. I wouldn't have my mind going there. It is stupid. Everything is easy. I just need to flow. Be with me Lord. Be with me.

I am going to be confident. Everything has an answer even if it's not perfect to my desire at the initial stage. There's always so much to be thankful for. Like I am very thankful that the workers issue isn't raging on at the moment to my knowledge. And I am very thankful that we will be replenishing some dough today. I am also thankful that I get to have peace and quiet and time to myself right now.

I will work out every stress one at a time. I have to simplify, clarify, focus. What I promised you the other day about keeping to schedule, I have not managed to zoom in entirely. Please forgive me. My mind was messy. I will attempt to do so again starting now. But it wasn't that bad anyway. I was flowing and saying yes to the events you presented me.

I have to be more positive. What I did not like about my old faith is the way the believers allowed themselves to become superstitious, weak and self-righteous. I shall not become the same in my growing understanding of energy fields. I shall not be this whimpering person no more in my writings to you. I will write like whatever I desire is already here and everything's perfect.

Om Namo Hanumantaay Aaveshay Aaveshay Swaahaa,

Celestine